so, the protagonist needs to be named something unisex, i'm thinking taylor, or jamie. he needs some sort of fundamental femininity to counter his very masculine, chauvinistic plot goals.
the protagonist probably won't be anything like me, which is a surprise.
his girlfriend/wife will be named alex, partially because it is also unisex like his name, but mainly for other reasons. she will be smarter than him, which will lead to something interesting, hopefully.
i've made the daily transition between normal mode and writer's mode. i will likely be much more quiet than usual when i see you. the hardest part about this process, i've learned, is the necessity for me to shut up and listen carefully to the people i know and love. if you're my friend, then you are automatically one of the smartest, most interesting and poignant people in my life. just talk a whole bunch and i'll be listening.
1. Who are you? 2. How long have you known me? 3. How well do you know me? 4. How have I affected you? 5. What do you really think of me? 6. What's the fondest memory you have of me? 7. How long do you think we will be friends? 8.Do you love me? 9. Do you have a crush on me? 10. Would you kiss me? 11. Physically, what stands out? 12. Emotionally, what stands out? 13. Do you wish I was cooler? 14. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I? 15. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it. 16. Am I loveable? 17. Describe me in one word. 18. What was your first impression? 19. Do you still think that way about me now? 20. What do you think my weakness is? 21. Do you think I'll get married? 22. What makes me happy? 23. What makes me sad? 24. What reminds you of me? 25. If you could give me anything what would it be? 26. When's the last time you saw me? 27. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't? 28. Do you think I could kill someone? 29. Do you miss me? 30. Do you think I miss you?
i have convinced myself—through a strange concoction postmodern destruction of grand narrative and darwinian denial of teleology—that i will remain happy for the rest of my life at a bulletproof constant. friends and loved ones, please be prepared for the probable crashing and burning of what i've just established. but maybe i'll stay like this. that would be a miracle.
i like: video sounds, black and white things, walls of noise, nihilistic banter, personal psychological investigation, the color red, family reunion disasters, friendship disasters, winking at people, winking at my parents, megaphones, sirens, ambiguous limbs, people in my bed, people painted red, and cowboys.
i don't like non-extreme people. especially whiney people. but that'll change.
i have work tomorrow with slutty dave (eggers). i'm going to cross my legs man-style.